Thursday, April 14, 2011
And I thank you life
I was talking to a friend yesterday who is losing her grandmother and it caused me to think about how fragile our lives are with no guarantees and how thankful I am to have such a fortunate life. I was born into a silver spoon live with loving parents, family and family friends to support me. My parents worked hard and were modestly successful. My mother was able to be a stay at home mother and care for us each and every day. For the most part we avoided major sickness or crisis. I grew up being confident as a result of a loving family – not fearing what the world had in store for me. I avoided the major mistakes as I grew up. I was able to venture off of the reservation knowing where the boundaries were and where not to go. I watched some of my high school friends make poor choices and over time we went our own separate ways. I was able to survive high school, enjoy junior college and get serious about my life in college. I did not attend an Ivy League college but that did not get in my way in learning how to learn. I was able to right my life direction in a positive way and enjoy my work. And I thank you…
I met some great people along the way that really shaped my future. I found a spiritual teacher that opened my awareness to work on myself. I had other great influencers in high school who stamped me with their values and helped make me the man that I grew up to be. And best of all I dated some terrific women who forced me to mature and be responsible. I was fortunate to listen and learn along the way of the best of the best wisdom that was shared with me. I was also able to see some of my largest weaknesses and humbly try to improve myself. I loved hard - enjoyed and remorse in the lessons that having a relationship brought to me – all shaping and molding me into a well traveled person. And I thank you…
In my professional career I was able to balance my personal and professional parts of my life – I made that my highest priority. It did not yield me the potential success professionally that I could have reached, but at night I slept better than most. I also benefited in my career in seeing a large part of the world. My work brought me to many parts of Asia and Europe. It opened my eye to how ridiculously spoiled the U.S. lifestyle is. I would return home and marvel at the disproportional amount of resources that I had. My lifestyle in some parts of the world reflect a lifestyle of a King – big house filled with food, fancy cars, many pets, limitless in many abilities to comfortably life way beyond my means. And I thank you…
Last and most importantly I have an incredible wife and kids. They all are blessed with good health, attractiveness, and plenty of smarts. One could not ask for more, yet there are times when the anger, greed and folly get the best of me. I have met and learned that temptation is far stronger than my will so I try not to invite this demon into my life too often because I know the outcome. All in all the point of this brief note is to say thank you life for so many riches. And I thank you…
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Suicide

Greg H Boe, a very close friend of mine, who took his life last year. He planned his suicide. He moved out of his apartment, put all of his belonging in storage, made requests for this final arrangements - which were to have none, and drove to a park and hung himself.
I know Greg was to know a funny, charming, smart and successful person. He did not show signs of depression. At the time he was unemployed for a couple of years. He also went through a divorce five years earlier that haunted him. Challenges - yes, terrible circumstances - not in my opinion. But my opinion, or anyone else, really did not matter. It was his opinion that mattered, his emotions that he took with him. There are no answers for a friend who learns about such an event. It is a shock with no answers.
I remind myself that life is for the living. It is in constant motion and change. There are no answers, only opinions. I will keep a smile on my face and remember my good friend for all of the wonderful times we spent together.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Major Fall - lose of a dear friend

I plan to use this site to document some of the challenges that I have faced in my life. This one was the lose of my first (former - divorced at the time) wife to cancer. Death is permanent, no changing anything. All of you thoughts, words, experiences are locked forever when someone you know passes on. You can not change the past, only think about it. It is the only reminder to keep you in the present and to take care of the people you love most. There are no second chances with death, so I do my best every day to remember that fact and treat the ones I love as best as I can.
Sorry you are gone Kelly, you are missed.
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